Coming Back to Myself

Hello Everyone!

Sorry, for long absence of me writing to you here. I have started numerous blog posts, some with what I felt to be profound words, that turned into mush halfway through and then thoughts became so jumbled I could not get them down on paper... So, finally I awoke this morning with some clarity. Please, be patient as I once again transcribe thoughts and feelings in my head into writing.

Time has flown by, this last year seems like a blur. If I had a feelings chart, you know one of those that you put on your refrigerator to help identify what a person is going through at the moment, I would definitely have cycled through EVERY single emotion, EVERY day. While trying to navigate though the constant stream of emotions, I thought my physical day had not changed much, in retrospect it has indeed changed. Life has changed. Perhaps it was just denial or trying to remain calm, life has shifted into a new paradigm.

While talking with a now, new stay-at-home mom, who is trying to navigate “at home learning” while still maintaining her sanity, our conversation was interrupted by her child and she asked, “Why are you not on with your teacher? You need to be on the computer with your teacher...” Directions where given and our conversation continued. Not two minutes later this mom was asking, “Why are you in your Captain America costume? You need to get back on the computer with your teacher...” It was in this moment I realized we are all navigating life in our own special way.

While we are in challenging, frustrating and nerve wracking times, remember there is truly an immense amount of LOVE and UNDERSTANDING as every single one of us have our struggles with this new paradigm. Remember all of your feelings are valid, and need to be worked through. When you need to, take a moment to breathe, scream in a pillow, cry in your safe space, get outside or whatever you need to do in the movement. Feel it, acknowledge it and then let it go.

As many of you know I LOVE WINTER! So, regardless of the cold and snow, I get outside. I recommend this to everyone. Spending time in nature is the only thing that brings me back to myself, but I may invest in a Captain America costume to bring me that joy, or maybe dress up Randy.

All My Best,

Dr. Nicole

Let me tell you about Miss Rosie…

Miss Rosie was rescued when she was about 10 months old, she is now 16.  Miss Rosie spent 10 years of her life on a downeast farm where she was the family milk cow. Chances are if you lived in Downeast Maine during this time, you had milk from Rosie.  She was treated like a queen, she had three little girls who grew up painting her hooves and dressing her up.  Rosie had 4 calves over the years and she became the “farm pet.”  As the children grew and life changed, the family decided not to have a farm anymore, it was a Full Time Job, and they were adjusting to their family’s growing needs. They thought long and hard about “what to do with their beloved Rosie.

That is where Mike and I enter the picture.  The family asked if we could give Rosie a “retirement home”.  Besides having some backyard chickens, which is a blog for another day, we decided to welcome Rosie to our home.  Neither of us ever had livestock, I actually grew up in the city, and honestly we had no idea what we were getting ourselves into, but we were all in. 

We got Miss Rosie a barn, I painted her some signs and  made it her home. We learned that the Feed and Seed was now our favorite new place to shop for the essentials for a queen. In the years Rosie has been retired I have learned many more things… It’s her way or NO way.  During the winter she will not come out of her barn, unless you bring snacks and snowshoe her a path.  In the summer she prefers two fans, as one requires her to turn back and forth from her face to her bum, but if she has two it’s almost like AC.  She loves apples, she loves scratching her neck on all the trees, she hates fly spray, will tolerate a bandana, and will never turn down a brushing.  She loves when the school bus shows up with a group of kids, and on those days it’s always about her.  Rosie has also enjoyed the garden club, when they came she was a star, and the flowers decorated her. There also was another group of artists that brought their easels and paints and sure enough Rosie did not disappoint. 

Rosie also happily goes for walks, and she never turns down attention. She is very social.  I learned that Rosie loves men, I mean LOVES them.  She turns into a total flirt, her head down and kicking up dirt and then blowing at them all. I have left patients laying on my chiropractic table because the neighbor called and Rosie was out running the neighborhood. 

Rosie’s great to talk to if you need a good cry. She can take all of your weight, give you warmth, and always listens until you are good and done with all that you have to say. Rosie has listened to it all, all my woes and all my excitement. Rosie will endlessly “help” Mike clean her stall, but she likes it done her way. I assure you that Mike’s words are sometimes colorful, but she just lets his words go, and keeps right along “helping” in her own special way,

Rosie has been a pure joy, I have looked out and seen her playing with the deer, I have pulled porcupine quills out of her head, but I told her she made the best cow-icorn ever.  She’s one of the loves of our lives, she’s a rock to anchor us, she makes sure we get out everyday and most days lets me process my day with her, aloud or to myself, but I’m there in the barn with her.  She gives me the space to bring me back to myself. There has not been a minute we have not enjoyed her spirit and energy around our home, and she helps make our house, home. 

When people ask what do you have for pets? I have a list that I go through and when I get to Rosie I say, “We have a 1,200 lb dog.” 

“All My Best.” - Dr Nicole

Who is Randy?

Randy came into the world in February 2019, in the frigid cold. It was so cold that his mother was unable to get him up and dried off quickly enough before frostbite had set in. Luckily, Randy’s farmers were able to get him inside and thought out his frozen body with a hairdryer and nursed him back to health. This took about three months. While Randy has some permanent damage to his hind legs, ears, and feet, he is a healthy, wooly lamb. 

October 2019, I was having a conversation with one of Randy’s farmers about getting Miss Rosie a companion animal. As I felt she gets a little depressed in the darker months. At this time I was told all about the little frostbitten lamb, who just did not quite fit in around there “working“ farm. I do not think of myself as a farmer, I think of myself as a caretaker of all creatures in a steward of my land. So, arrangements were made to bring this 9-month-old lamb to become part of our family.

Randy was dropped off on a beautiful fall day, the air was crisp, the sky was blue and I had no idea how to care for a sheep, honestly I never even had been around sheep. He was timid during the first couple of days but wanted nothing to do with being in a barn or a pen or a companion for Miss Rosie. He was stuck to Mike and I like glue. Lester was beyond excited to have a mini-me to play with, and could not figure out why Randy could not come inside to play. 

In less than 48 hours we learned that Randy did not care about electric fences, he really wanted to eat anything but grass/hay, he loves to be fussed over, to have his chin scratched, and he let us know he was not your “ordinary sheep“. 

Fast forward, Randy has been in our lives for nine months, which in sheep parent terms “terms“ it feels like decades. The winter presented some Randy challenges, mostly convincing him he was not a house sheep, although his persistence was enough to figure out how to open the front door, the garage door...basically, any entry to the house was fair game. Calling the local hardware store asking for someone to fix your screen door, because your pet sheep just walked in, is just “normal“ these days

Spring presented an entirely new set of Randy “issues”. I have spent 14 years working on my flower gardens, they are truly a labor of love, for Randy they have been what he loves to eat! The first glimpses of the greens were tempting and tender, which he really enjoyed. The gardens that had open borders were Randy’s favorite spots to graze, the ENTIRE DAY. We spent hours trying to find the best “Randy proof” fencing, we had several failed attempts, as he would find the weakest spot and then, there he would be, grazing on daylilies and peonies. There are decorative fences, my yard-garb creations my dad made, pallets, old windows, and rocks all over the yard surrounding the gardens. While they look nice, there are a few plants Randy loves and there are extra layers of protection for them. Luckily, the vegetable garden has always been protected, from Miss Rosie as well as the neighborhood dear. Over the years I have enjoyed planting annuals and having a splash of color all over the yard, now those are simply hanging baskets as well as a couple of pots behind dog gates. Which are 100% effective if put in the exact right spot.

Randy just wants to be included in EVERY SINGLE  thing we do. He would hop in the truck and go if we let him, he never misses a walk, he is kind to every animal he meets, he watches the cats with amazement, he enjoys animal planet when he’s inside, he hangs out with the chickens, he greets the delivery people, he lets you know when it’s 6 PM (time to eat!), he loves kisses, he loves to be brushed, he loves Lester, he burps a lot, he nibbles everything, he enjoys a cool day and most of all he makes your soul happy. Randy, has bought brought an endless amount of joy to our home, we say, “No Randy” at least 20 times a day, and he will gladly nibble on your tire if you come and visit but no worries, he’s never given anyone a flat.

There has yet to be a dull moment around since we adopted Randy. Nor, has there been a reason to lock our doors before, but now we do, all because of a sheep name Randy. He’s the fluffiest, funniest creature, he thinks he’s skinny and knocks over our lawn furniture, and he sleeps on the dog bed beds. On a happy note, upon weeding my garden he will eat the entire pile of weeds which is great for me, a little less work. There are days that just Randy alone, can leave you feeling like you have been chasing 10 toddlers around all day, but in reality, it’s just been Randy touching everything. 

Randy has a very special relationship with Lester, their energy feeds off each other, and in their time together it is easy to hear each of them blaming the other for all things wrong. There is a “sheepish“ way Randy looks at Lester and calling him the “black sheep.” They are indeed a pair, and our lives will never be the same because of the two of them. We have enjoyed watching Randy’s personality flourish, we have enjoyed watching him try to be a “real sheep“, we have learned resiliency of plants and their ability to adapt to a short growing spring. We enjoy our family walks, and most of all we LOVE RANDY and all his little quirks, he fits in perfectly.

All My Best,

Dr. Nicole

Blessings Received

I woke up this morning still tired and saying, “Thank you, thank you, thank you…”

I have a bed, a home, and safety.

Outside the window was overcast and chilly, the fog still lingering about, “Thank you, thank you, thank you…”

I live very close to nature, the salt air rejuvenates me, and I have been blessed with stewardship.

There are farm chores before breakfast, and before my “real job” starts and they multiply and always take longer than expected, “Thank you, thank you, thank you…”

I have a purpose, I have created a sanctuary, and I have learned responsibility and can handle what I am given.

As I walk back towards the house I see Randy the Sheep has let himself in, the door left open and a chicken or two may have followed suit, “Thank you, thank you, thank you…”

Love has led all these animals to me, and they give just as much back to me every day, I do not go a day without joy.

I work hard all day and there is always more left to do, and a list of things to do that will never be completed before it is added to, “Thank you, thank you, thank you…”

I have a calling, I have answered it, I do my best every day, I do not give up, and I am fulfilled.

EVERY DAY there are moments that we like to complain about, to commiserate about, what if we reached out to the thoughts and the blessings we have received that allows us to be in the moment that that is hard, difficult, or uncomfortable? To remember the gifts are we not seeing? We are all living in this reality right now, with different scenarios in our lives.  Yes, it is crazy, scary and something we never expected. This does not negate any blessing, gift, or love that we have received. We still have it, We still have the ability to feel and be in that mind space when we were graced with blessings, and make the conscious choice to live in that moment. 

When we choose to live in this mindset, the blessings keep on giving and we also pass them on.

Saving Barbie

In the midst of the chaos in the world over the last two months (yes, two months that have actually felt like eternity). Our entire world has been turned upside-down, twisted, convoluted and has become unrecognizable. We have gone a very long time not seeing family, distancing from friends and our normal social network.

We have been forced to slow down.

We have been “given” the opportunity to slow down.

I have always worked, I enjoy my path of helping others heal and find their healing journey. I have not had a lot of time to sit idle during this time of corona, I have continued helping others, as well as trying to find a balance. During this time of completely unsettled feelings my life has changed. My daily routines have become different, home life is different, the simple things we enjoy such as taking a drive and visiting family, all of those things that we enjoy now look completely different.

I went from having alone time, to having a partner that is now home 24/7. Talk about a game changer. Learning how to readjust for me, was a little difficult, but here we are several weeks later, laughing and carrying on.

I have found that my chiropractic practice is a place of comfort, a sense of normal and a place where even though I have not been able to hug every person that walks through my door, my office is a place that people come to, to just feel better and feel better about themselves. I MISS HUGS!

The last 8 weeks have been tough, and while spring is blooming, the grass is turning green and birds are singing, I needed a break to recharge my spirit and my soul...

I had no other plans than to get into a vehicle and be the passenger for a day. To be open to what a day of sunshine and new scenery would bring.

It had been many, many months since I had taken a random adventure.  Lester and I dropped off Mike at his meeting, ahh… alone time! FINALLY.

We found a nice hiking trail, we spent some time sitting on rocks, watching the birds, listening to the random, yet deliberate sounds of nature. We found waterfalls, abandoned wells and buildings, then we ended up at a beautiful lake. We hiked up to a glorious sand beach. There, there were a few parents with their children, an older couple holding hands walking the beach, a few boats in the water, as well as a graceful loon and a little family of ducks.  It was a perfect place to spend a couple of hours sitting on a rock with my feet in the water, moving my toes in the sand.

There were no face masks, no worry, just people enjoying the sunshine, warm weather and taking time at their leisure.

Lester and I were greeted by a blonde, curly-haired cutie, wearing the most glorious sundress, and leggings pulled up to her knees. She was spending the afternoon with her dad, he was doing a little fishing and kept apologizing for his daughter disturbing us. Honestly, Lester and I did not mind one bit. She was joyful, talkative, strong-willed and rather funny. Within no time I had a new best friend.

We threw rocks in the water, she gave me gifts of leaves she had found, she had me fix her hair (those curls were truly amazing), we splashed in the water, we walked Lester, and we laughed. Her dad was genuinely kind.

I had  no expectations, no agenda for the day.  I truly, never expected to meet a curly-haired little girl that would be most entertaining.

The highlight of my “mental” health day was saving a beach Barbie who was being forced off the beach to swim, from drowning. I saved beach Barbie too many times to count.  I spent the afternoon with a little girl that made my heart skip a few beats.  There is nothing more pure, more raw than spending time with kids.

Her dad thanked me many times, and when they packed up to leave she looked at her dad and asked if she could hug me bye. He said, YES. THAT WAS THE BEST HUG EVER.

Lester and I had a grand afternoon. We were both tired and our hearts were full.

I needed to recharge, I needed to reconnect, I needed to save Barbie, but in hindsight, the change of the scenery for this one afternoon with the help of a three year old, I saved myself.

In times of uncertainty that can cause great stress, it is important to check-in. Remember to check-in with yourself.  Re-set, Re-chare, Re-establish your priorities and give yourself time and space to heal.

Maybe just go get a Barbie and pitch her into a lake and save her ass, it can be life changing.

All My Best.

In Your Own Time

This week spring is starting to color and texture the earth for us here in Maine. The few blades of grass that nature had painted in last week are now becoming woven carpets of green that cushion our feet. Tulips have stretched out tall, and their many colors are coming through their seams that will soon burst open for us to enjoy their splendor. The bright yellow of forsythia bushes are creating many smiles all round our area, and white, delicate flowers of the apple, cherry, and dogwood trees are starting to bloom as well.

Many of you have already had these moments of spring happen for you, and friends in the north are still watching snow melt, friends in the southern hemisphere are moving into cooler temperatures and getting ready for winter.

There is no way to cover all of the different changes at the same time for everyone. However, there is something to be said for your surroundings reflecting your needs and your bodies rhythms at the right time. You are part of the nature in your area, and what is happening around you is the part of the healing, life and energy cycle that you are in as well.

Whether we are gaining the energy for change, slowing down to rest, or in a time of reflection, it is all part of the cycle. Sometimes we would like to be in a different place, and we push for it. This is where we can upset the balance. We look and see what others are doing, where they are in their journey, what things are possible to have occur and then we forget ourselves…where we are, what our needs are in this part of our own journey, and we try to be something we are not. Oh, this will get you somewhere, usually right back to the beginning.

So, right now, look inward and see where you are, what part of the cycle you are in? Please, acknowledge the important and hard work you are doing for yourselves! This work that you are doing for yourself, the hard won steps, the sprints that you get to take, the moments that you have had to wait before moving forward, please know how valuable all of this is, as well as the love and time that you have given to yourself. Please, take this deep look from time to time, before you see something shiny and distracting elsewhere, something that seems faster and everyone else is doing…please don’t leave the work and successes you have accomplished for yourself behind. Own this work that you have done for yourself!

When you do look around at others or seek out new information to assist yourself, reflect on where you are in your healing journey, what work you are doing, how you are feeling, and listen to what your body needs. Everyone is at a different stage in their healing journey, and that is okay! Please give yourself the time you need to give yourself compassion, and the love and grace you need to move forward successfully. Remember, only in your own time, in your own healing journey, is your own success possible.

Love to you all.

Whatever the Weather

Yesterday it was sunny with a warm wind, today is rain that is going to turn into snow as the sun sets, we will wake with a light covering of snow tomorrow morning. The weather here in the northeast changes daily in the spring. It can mimic January to August, in the scope of a few hours, but we know it will never last too long.

We are not fooled by the warmth of the sun, for hours later we can be cover in snow. We know that the northerly wind can freeze water over night till about noon, but it cannot hold on forever. We know that change is what to expect, and even though we may dream warmer days with a warmer breeze before the little black flies hatch, we have to “be” here now.

Weather happens daily, sometimes hourly, some times it rains in the back yard and is sunny in the front (Rainbow Time!!!) But as I just stated, the only time that you can enjoy it is right now. Put on the appropriate gear to keep warm and dry and go enjoy that spring snow storm, go jump in that puddle, go enjoy the sunshine on your skin when that extra layer gets too hot. Go back inside and make tea and soups when the rain makes you cold.

Enjoy the little things that the weather brings to your senses. The warm woolly smell of a sweater, mud tugging on your boots and knowing your feet are dry, bare feet in a barely warm garden, wearing layers that keep you just right in the sun, laying on the ground with the smell of spring earth and last years grasses breaking down, being drowsy and just wanting a little nap. Running for the house in a spring rain shower, but not really upset that you are getting wet, or possibly because it’s absolutely freezing.

What on earth is she getting at you ask?

The moments of nature that you can experience are many and vast, these are just a few I experienced in one day this week. Each moment was fleeting, but they where all joyous, some of it blissful, some allowed for me to be a participant in creating spring in my garden. Other moments had me sheltering indoors, nourishing my body with foods and warmth. Not every moment was comfortable, but I am aware that I am blessed to be able to change my situation, here I could seek the shelter that I needed and then rejoin nature outdoors when the weather changed.

Change allows the discomfort to lead you to where you need to be, or comfort in a new setting, to find the joy, or what makes your soul content. Change is inevitable, it always is. Sometimes change is rapid and sometimes it is slow in coming, but it is coming. Nothing in nature is meant to stay stagnant. In the Spring, the changes in the weather are rapid, so is growth during this time. There changes are not limited to the weather and plant growth, it applies to us as well.

The changes of this spring’s awakening have not been comfortable, but if this were not so, changes that are so baldly needed would not be happening. Changes that give us opportunities to assist in our healing, finding comfort, rest, and growth. These changes are occurring for all of us. Our bodies are being asked to move and get out after the quiet state of winter, and then were thrown into energetically charged time of refection earlier this year. Now, now we get to move forward, just like the Earth in Spring.

How is your journey reflecting the season?

Are you accommodating changes or fighting them?

Have you stopped for a moment to see what possibilities change is trying to bring you too?

You do not have to know the answers to these questions, but maybe give yourself some time in nature, or while you’re sheltering from it to maybe sit with them, and see what opportunities are within the changes that are coming your way.

All My Best

Spring Growth

Watching nature bring back all of life’s colors and start the cycle of growth is a most magical thing to witness. The ground paints itself green one blade of grass at time, then you notice that the green is reaching out to the sun and growing closer to it. Buds on trees swell and start to crack open, letting you see their hints of whites, yellows and greens. Some hardy bulbs shoot forth their flowers even while snow still coats the ground. I think that they cheer on the other flowers who are more hesitant to peek out and see what is going on, letting them know that the time is near.

Here in the northeast, winter holds on a bit tighter, and we get a little impatient for the first spring greens to show. Sometimes, we need to create a little bit of spring life inside, to grow the tender seedlings, so they might have the amount of time that they need to grow and bear fruit in our gardens. We then need to tend them, giving them more soil and bigger containers to continue to grow while the weather outside is too cold, and windy for them to live.

As the temperatures rise and things get warmer, and the winds relent just a bit, we take our little plants outside for a few hours each day. To let them experience the wind and slowly allow the plants to become strong to be able to stand within it. To let them feel the sun, to be able to process it’s energy into the nutrients that it needs, allowing all the cells to slowly learn to work successfully, without getting burned. Then, we give them a break, bring them inside to rest and then start again the next day. After a week or so of this transition, they are able to stay outside and are ready to be planted (I am impatiently waiting for this time right now, but for us it could well be another month.)

Starting inside, giving nutrition, tending to needs, allowing things to build and learn to work properly, resting, being patient…

I didn’t start out to write a metaphor at all, I wanted to share my love of watching spring build life… I guess I did a bit of that too.

Maybe take some time to sit out in nature for a bit, just being in it and a part of it. See how you feel when you are touching the earth and taking in a bit of that energy from the sun and then, go back in and rest when you have need of it. There will be so much more to come when we are prepared and ready for it.

All My Best.

My First Sign Of Spring

I’ve been waiting for the first robin of spring.

I’ve seen the water running underneath its crust of ice, mosses starting to become a brighter green, seen the ground heave and have had the frost crunch and sink under my feet. Still, I’m waiting for that first robin of spring.

I find myself inquiring if anyone else has seen this elusive sight of spring? I have received a lot of no’s and not yet, but many recall maybe that they have heard a friend make mention of it.

I go for walks, start the yearly clean-up of the backyard, and greet the sun while listening to all of the song birds, waiting to hear the robin join in…not yet, I’m still waiting, where is that first robin of spring?

It’s been warm enough to hang out laundry - twice, baby chicks and ducklings should be here next week, and the seeds that my family have planted have all germinated inside, right next to our sunniest window. There is still not a robin insight.

So, today I’ve done the animal chores, checked the email situation, made breakfast, and started to think that it maybe nice enough again to hand out some laundry, oh no I didn’t start the machine…as I walk to the laundry room and glance out the window…oh my, yes!!! There he is! I look about the house to inform everyone that it has finally happened, the robins are returning! Spring is here! There’s one in the garden! However, no one is about at this moment, it’s mine alone, a meeting of Spring just for me. I walk outside, hoping that he is still there, and he is…all in his red-breasted glory, hopping about my dormant garden.

Right now all signs of Spring are to the contrary, snow starts to spit and there are even bits of hail coming down, but I find that my soul is taking solace in this moment. The robin hops and pecks about the bark mulch bordering my garden, gives a quick chirp and a nod, then he is off. I relax and sit in the quiet of this moment, wipe the snow that’s leaving wet, cold kisses on my cheeks and know that spring is on its way.

Maybe next time the robin will be here long enough to pose for a photo, until then I await his return.

What is your sign that Spring is finally here?

Support For You

Hi Everyone,

We are finding ourselves in a time of change with a lot of unknown outcomes. During this time I feel I need to create additional openings for questions, and for your voices to be heard. I have asked Thea open and to book 15 minute appointments so you can check in and ask your most pressing questions about the corona virus and the circumstances around the current situation, as well as how you can best support and protect yourself at this time.

As social distancing is being called for as it is important for not spreading the virus, it is also important to have support for yourselves at the same time as well. Feeling supported and having a plan reduces stress and allows your immune system to function at its best for you.

As always you can contact us through email at information@healingwithdrnicolegalante.com or by phone at 1-401-830-2339.

We thank you for your patience and grace at this time.

All Our Best,

Dr. Nicole and Thea